It's just a part of my story now. [He smiles mildly.] Written on my heart just like it's written on my skin. If it wasn't causing me problems now, I would be able to move past it entirely...
[He thinks about how some of the Ishgardians had treated him, and how hard he rebelled against being put under Garlean custody, and a few other situations where he refused to be chained. Okay, so maybe he's not completely over it.
Freedom is the most important thing to him, besides his family.]
Thank you, Raha. You've always been so patient with me. [Amal owes him one. Or two, or three—just how many times has Raha saved his hide now?]
... I, uh... I didn't really have a plan outside of dinner and asking you to hold my hand, I'll admit...
[He looks at their joined hands and he blushes, too. Raha is nice and warm, but more than that, Amal trusts him absolutely. He just doesn't trust himself not to fuck it up should they ever go any further. But maybe... doing this will help? Maybe Zelos is right, and it'll help him get over the trauma.
It would be nice to be brave enough to kiss someone like Raha and not have it be part of his job, or some kind of act. It... would be wonderful.]
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Date: 2022-11-22 02:14 am (UTC)[He thinks about how some of the Ishgardians had treated him, and how hard he rebelled against being put under Garlean custody, and a few other situations where he refused to be chained. Okay, so maybe he's not completely over it.
Freedom is the most important thing to him, besides his family.]
Thank you, Raha. You've always been so patient with me. [Amal owes him one. Or two, or three—just how many times has Raha saved his hide now?]
... I, uh... I didn't really have a plan outside of dinner and asking you to hold my hand, I'll admit...
[He looks at their joined hands and he blushes, too. Raha is nice and warm, but more than that, Amal trusts him absolutely. He just doesn't trust himself not to fuck it up should they ever go any further. But maybe... doing this will help? Maybe Zelos is right, and it'll help him get over the trauma.
It would be nice to be brave enough to kiss someone like Raha and not have it be part of his job, or some kind of act. It... would be wonderful.]